Jamie L. Luoto: I Believe in Ghosts

I Believe in Ghosts
[ ongoing series ]

Artist Statement

I believe in ghosts: I believe those who weren’t and won’t be believed, and I see the ghosts that haunt us.

This series of painted self-portraits illuminates the aftermath of sexual assault: the lasting psychological impact of repeated sexual trauma on an individual and the role silence plays as both an act of self-preservation and tool of oppression. I explore my psyche and experience with complex post-traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD), blurring the line between external presentation and internal reality to bring to light the unseen injuries of sexual trauma that invade and haunt mind and body.

I examine silence as a form of self-preservation. Non-verbal cues, such as gaze and body language, communicate boundaries, while static environments evoke the feeling of being frozen in time, just as one may freeze when threatened or attacked. Using the visual language of European masterworks, I relate the tradition of being silenced in the face of dismissal, disbelief, and shaming to the historic exclusion of women’s work and themes in art. I reframe classic imagery, such as the seated and lounging nude, in equivalent-sized works in oil, to reclaim space and agency.

The prevailing environment of skepticism and doubt requires survivors to prove not only that they were assaulted but also that they didn’t deserve it. By focusing attention on the aftermath of sexual assault, rather than the details of what was done by whom and when, I present an opportunity to consider the unseen toll on individuals in this "phantom epidemic."